heartless me

I wanna tell about my heartless side show-up this afternoon.

You know, my cousin RA suddenly calling and ask to get him and his wife, DP, at bus terminal.

I don't want to go, so my brother go there.

Its appear in my mind. Hatred. Full of hate while I remember DP didn't tell about her pregnant to me. How she treat me not like her older sister. How undependable I am to her.

I hate that much, when somebody just see me one eyes.

Really hurt me that way. So, suddenly I hate her.

But, its just for a while, coz slowly I find a way to kick the heartless me.

I just tell to myself, how poor she is now. she has a baby soon but her life now not good enough. How sad being mommy but you can not tell everyone honestly. Poor to the baby too.

So, I build-up my mind to forgive her just now.

I hope, the heartless me never show-up again.